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| registering for classes |
[01 Sep 2006|09:15am] |
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woah that was fun. NOT.
i haven't been so stressed since school, and it all turned out just fine. I got into the classes I wanted, though I still wish I could've fit Classical Mythology in there somewhere too, but that's ok. There's always next year. :-/
I am taking:
Hebrew 101
Psych 101
Writing 125-20: The Places of Nature (yay field trips!!!)
Experimental 235: Louis XIV and the Marvels of Paris and Versailles (a class that combines teachings from a professor in Music, Art, and French!!!)
I'm excited :-D
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| Boston |
[25 Aug 2006|05:03pm] |
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In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...
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She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
Boston... where no one knows my name...
in less than an hour i'm leaving my home forever. my family is moving, and yes, it's two houses down, but it's still not home. in the meantime, i'm leaving for boston, to start my new life, just like the girl in this amazing song by augustana (whose concert i went to last week, and cried at). leaving home, leaving LA, and leaving all my friends and boyfriend, all at the same time. But if everyone else can do it, so can I, right?
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[19 Jun 2006|02:44pm] |
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my last core final is tomorrow, we graduate on june 22nd, and i leave for boston on august 26th.
holy crap none of it still feels real!
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| sorry, african villages |
[09 Jun 2006|11:40pm] |
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so first of all: Diddy Riese is raising its prices! The ice cream cookie sandwiches will be $1.25. bummmmmerrrrrrr. we have to fish around our wallets for quarters now. ugh.
ANYWAY! it is crazy for me to think that saturday night is prom. this supposedly magical night that will be the most fun, memorable night of our high school life- maybe even whole life.
now let's take a moment and all say it together- WHAT THE FUCK? I mean, when you really think about it, it's a DANCE! it's a freaking 4 hour dance! I am spending INSANE amounts of money on this stupid dance? WHY>?!?!?!?
I've felt especially guilty ever since Mr. Linn told us "With the amount you students spend on prom, you could feed an entire African village." Dammit. Even though I'm excited about prom in general, it really made me realize how frivolous (sp?) and crazy this whole thing is. Why get a limo? Why do my nails? Why get someone to do my makeup? Why find the "perfect" dress that I'm only going to wear once? I just don't get it. What did I do all this for? To impress a bunch of people I'll probably never see again after 2 weeks? So that I look good in my photos and can tell my kids "yup that was me at prom" and have them go "oh mommy you looked so pretty!"? i just really don't know. i know it'll be fun and all, but i just really don't know if it's worth all this...
in other news, i think i saw IDAN RAICHEL filming something outside cambridge farms the other day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| drum roll please... |
[27 Apr 2006|06:11pm] |
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5 years ago, i told my mom i didn't want to go to berkeley because she just wanted me to go there because she went there. i was in a rebellious teenager stage. then we visited the campus when i was in 9th grade and i fell in love. berkeley was quickly tied at the top of my list with ucla and yale.
4 years later (aka...now), i told my parents i prolly didn't want to go to wellesley, because they were forcing me to go there just because of the money issue. they finally consented to let me make my own choice. i went off to visit smith and wellesley, convinced that i was going to come back hating wellesley's bubble-like, all-women, demanding, stiff, proper environment. Wellesley had the complete opposite effect on me. Much like my trip to Berkeley all those years ago, my trip to Wellesley secured in my mind that this was the right place for me. Small classes with intelligent, amazing professors who do their best to help you succeed. All-women environment to encourage women to speak up and be more confident and successful. BEAUTIFUL campus. omg it was SO GORGEOUS! lindsey reed and i walked around taking pictures all day and going "OHHHHHHHHH MY GOD THIS IS AMAZING!" and the women there were the most friendly, intelligent, confident, fun, smart, INCREDIBLY NICE, involved, driven, and all around down-to-earth women i've ever met. I felt so incredibly comfortable there. And BOSTON- it's only 40 minutes away! you hop on a bus and hop off and... I just couldn't believe it. I went to Harvard Square. On a Sunday night. When it was pouring rain. I couldn't believe I was there! Plus, as one woman there said, this is my only chance to try a small liberal arts women's college. i'll never have this opportunity again! not to mention wellesley is SUCH a prestigious school! people weren't kidding when they told me there aren't too many schools one should turn down wellesley for.
I'm REALLY sad to turn down Berkeley and UCLA, which I've ALWAYS loved and was completely convinced I was going to attend, but, I'm going to Wellesley for college! I filled out my SIR, i'm sending it in tomorrow, and I'm ordering my sweater online sometime in the very near future.
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!
and i'm visiting everyone in california when i'm back home for my january break (i get like 5 weeks off for winter! muahaha)
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| wonder of wonder, miracle of miracles |
[18 Apr 2006|10:06pm] |
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i officially believe in miracles (well i kindof always have... ANYWAY that's not the point):
my father,
who, 1 and a half weeks ago, got into one of the hugest arguments in my family's history with me about college, and basically told me i HAD to go to wellesley,
just said, tonight, at dinner,
that he and my mom want me to go to whatever school makes me happy,
and they will make it work somehow financially.
CAN WE JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO PROCESS THIS?!?!?! my father has made a COMPLETE turn around! my PARENTS have taken the pressure off of me! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! I CAN CHOOSE WHICHEVER COLLEGE I WANT TO!
ofc, they'd still prefer I go to Wellesley cuz of the whole cheap and amazing school thing, but they understand that it may not be right for me, and i may want to go to berkeley or ucla.
i'll admit though, i'm a little scared for my upcoming visit to smith and wellesley. not only am i SO FREAKING SCARED of flying alone (everyone has their fears. flying is mine), i'm scared that i may not feel the OOMPH feeling from either of them. Y'know, the "this is where I want to spend the next 4 years" feeling. And if I don't, I've got ONE WEEK to choose between 4 (and a 1/2, if you count BU, which I can't cross off my list that easily...) AMAZING schools, all of which have significant benefits and drawbacks.
but i don't care, because i have the freedom to choose, and i love my parents, and this means the world to me, you have no idea <33333333
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| mr. aza and one year anniversary :) |
[16 Apr 2006|12:34am] |
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so tonight was mr. aza, and mr. aza always really signified the "last event" for seniors in my opinion. i mean, convention we all cry and say it's the end etc etc, but then we all know that after just enough time to recover and take a breather from bbyo, mr. aza rolls around. and everyone is back, and the love from convention is still there, and the show is hilarious, and it's good times all around again. and then after that, there's lives... which isn't like an event at all... it's just... lives. and then... that's it. so now bbyo really does feel over for me
and i know i shouldn't think this way because there's still the isf dance, and lives, and beach day (if steven's keeping it? who knows what he's doing w/ the schedule for next year)- it just really did feel hard to leave tonight. and it felt hard to watch the new regional board lead havdallah services and the bbg songs. and though our 26th term board was up there judging and talking and laughing like we used to (except that lauren wasn't up there with us! :( ), as soon as the contest ended it went back to us being our seperate selves in our own cliques and everything- just like normal life.
i don't even know what i'm ranting about anymore. i guess i've just got these conflicting feelings of 'it's the end' and 'it isn't- there's still more- don't let yourself feel this way!'
we'll see, we'll see
in other news, today is my one year anniversary with david. which means it's been one year since last convention, one year since i was installed on regional board. oh lord here i go again...
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| college rant- brace yourselves |
[28 Mar 2006|08:43pm] |
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i want to go to ucla.
like really.
but wellesley really wants me to go there, because they're practically giving me a free ride.
urrrrrrghhhhh and now my parents are pushing me towards wellesley. or, if not there, at least smith or BU, which both gave me good enough financial aid.
but anywhere but ucla, cuz it's the most expensive. i love how in the course of 1 1/2 weeks they've gone from "OMG-WE'RE-SO-PROUD-OF-YOU-YOU'RE-GOING-TO-UCLA-THIS-IS-THE-BEST-THING-EVER-MAZEL-TOV!!!!!!" to "GO TO WELLESLEY DAMMIT, IT'S AN AMAZING SCHOOL AND IT'S INSANELY CHEAP AND HILARY CLINTON WENT THERE (yes, i'm serious, that is one of my dad's big reasons for why i should go there)!"
i mean, i don't blame them, going to wellesley over ucla would save them soooooo much money it's incredible. and wellesley is ranked as one of the top 10 liberal arts schools in the country (not that i care about rankings...ha...). and it's half an hour from boston and 2 hours from my aunt. and one of my best friends since the age of 3 (smadar) goes there. and it's GORGEOUS (seen 'mona lisa smile'? well you should). and i don't really mind the whole women's college thing all that much- it'll be tough but i'll live. SO i'm willing to fly out there and visit (they're paying for that too- what did i do to make this school like me so much?!?!). but like, honestly i applied there on a whim cuz it was free, and i would really rather go to ucla or possibly smith... but i'll agree with everyone and their mother (literally) when they say that there aren't too many schools one should turn down wellesley for...
agh. so much pressure. i just want to go where i'll be most happy, not where i feel the least guilty for sending my parents to the poorhouse so they can afford my education.
for the first time in my life, i REALLY wish i was rich for an actually good reason. not like how oh i wish i had money just for the petty reasons of having a nice house or buying nice clothes or going to cool places- but so that i could have the freedom to choose a college based on how happy i'd be there, and not on its price.
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[11 Mar 2006|10:41am] |
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the waiting was worth it
i got my first acceptance
I GOT INTO UCLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[08 Mar 2006|07:54pm] |
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i want to hear back from colleges NOW! i can't wait much longer! it's driving me insane. :(
you feel me, right?
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| she said i think i'll go to boston, i think i'll start a new life |
[17 Jan 2006|09:30pm] |
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why does it seem like i like to write livejournal posts when i'm really depressed and stressed?
well, i am.
last weekend, i was having the time of my life, celebrating my birthday over 3 days, and loving every moment of it (pictures to come eventually).
now, i'm feeling drained and overworked and exhausted and empty. i'm testing for my black belt this saturday. i'm planning kallah. i'm on winter formal committee. i don't know when i'm going to find time to study for finals. and i have a slight cold, which has turned into a monster headache (partially due to the crying i did today at the regional office).
i came home from tkdo today and just didn't do my hw. i couldn't. i didn't feel like it. i just feel so drained and achy and tired.
and i don't know what i'm going to do about breaking a brick and how that costs extra for tkdo, and going to international convention, and just all this stuff money-wise. and it's the last thing i need to think about right now, honestly.
and i also don't know why i'm making such a big deal out of this afternoon, but i just can't stop crying and it's freaking me out. it's like when i got my wisdom teeth pulled and woke up and was crying for no reason at all. except that time, i had the medicine stuff to blame. this time, i have only myself.
here's hoping for a better day tomorrow
xoxo
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| l-i-l-i-t-h woo! lilith, lilith! |
[02 Jan 2006|10:47pm] |
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tonight lilith bbg had a good and welfare, and i must say, it was amazing. it reminded me of the old lilith that i had really, really felt attached to- that i called my sisters. but this is the new lilith, and i love us. we are amazing. we are lilith bbg. and we will not die out once all of us seniors leave dammit!!!
in other news, it's 4 days and 1 hour till my 18th birthday on january 6th. and i'm insanely excited. in a scared way. but who isn't, on their 18th?
GO TO KALLAH
lots of love!
xoxorly
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| it's suddenly hitting me |
[17 Dec 2005|11:38pm] |
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it doesn't become real until random people ask you about it. then suddenly it becomes harsh. and i don't know why.
i love how we're not even in school and everyone knows.
so just so everyone knows: it's no big. i don't care. i got what i expected, big whoop, and now i'm moving on with my life. the end.
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| like in the good old days |
[04 Dec 2005|10:05pm] |
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I'm going to post an lj post like I used to, and not be all depressed. Because it's about time!
This weekend was AMAZING! It was Chapter Challenge Convention, a new BBYO retreat weekend created that replaced LTI. I had so much fun partcipating in all the different competitions, bonding with my friends in the region, making new ones, bonding with Regional Board, venting, wearing tutus, wings, and halos, dressing up for midstates (and telling a joke in the middle of it!), and more! Props to Erika and AJ- they planned an awesome weekend!!!
Here are 3 quick pictures, from Mallory. TOMORROW I'M GETTING MY NEW DIGICAM and I am SO EXCITED (I dropped my last one in a sand dune in Israel, and it broke...). enjoy
that's hot/ hilarious!
love you all! xoxorly
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| And this is why I love Halloween |
[31 Oct 2005|10:10pm] |
so if you haven't heard the wonderful news, THE MIDTERM IS CANCELLED! Thank you 12th grade CORE teachers! I never knew you had a nice side!!! :)
in other news, I submitted my Yale application today, but strangely, I don't feel releived or anything. In fact, I don't feel anything...
And Halloween was major fun today. Maya, Megan, Elise and I went trick or treating and sang Halloween carols, got chased by that guy in that mask from Halloween (MAJORLY creepy), met some Montclair kids having a mini-party, and took pictures at "Boney Island" - this amazing, mechanical display of skeletons doing all sorts of things, like telling fortunes, climbing trees, singing songs, etc. I can't even begin to describe it.
My sugar rush has died, and I'm a happy girl. It's been a good day.
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| i can finally enjoy this weekend |
[21 Oct 2005|11:34pm] |
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*sigh*
all this stress and craziness made me go "i wish it wasn't homecoming and i wish it would just be OVER"
but then, suddenly, it was the pep rally
and leadership ROCKED
and suddenly, i got in the whole homecoming spirit and got really happy and excited like i do every year.
so i'm back to normal. good.
and we lost by the worst score for our game. cleveland didn't even get a single point. ouch. oh well, it'll at least be a memorable senior homecoming. :)
tomorrow is the dance. and it's going to look GORGEOUS. YES it will. i'm thrilled.
and i love him. i really know i do now. and that makes me happy.
I LOVE HOMECOMING!!!!!!!! :-D
and this year i could finally scream "06!!!!" and not feel stupid.
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| my hot israeli cousin |
[08 Oct 2005|07:21pm] |
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my israeli cousin, who was visiting all this week, just left. my parents just took him to the airport.
even though he cause me a lot of stress because i had to balance all the million things i do on top of driving him all around LA and answering a million questions ("NO, it is NOT worth visiting the OC. It's NOT that special, really...), he was a LOT of fun. It was like having a brother. We hung out, I got an excuse to go to places I haven't been in years, like Melrose and Hollywood and Highland, I got to hear him get enthusiastic about every little thing he saw, and I learned so much about Israeli culture vs. American.
I'm really gonna miss him. Especially since he's off to the army in a month, and... well... yeah...
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| this is what i do instead of studying for math |
[27 Sep 2005|10:11pm] |
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so i think i've come to terms with the fact that i am somewhat of an overachiever. but not so much. i don't understand people who think i'm "busiest senior" or w/e, because i'm not. i know so many people who do so much more than me, and truthfully, i think half the reason i do what i do is competition. not just for college, but for one-up-manship. that's right, mrs. gifford, i do not have a good will, according to kant, because all my actions have a motive behind them. and yet, i still can't understand kant to save my life...
and that's another thing. i realized that i'm a robot. i memorize information and spit it out. i am incapable of coming up with opinions or critical thoughts by myself. it's taken me 3 years of core to realize that. if you TELL me kant's damn philosophy, i will spit it back at you, but i will not understand it on my own. i cannot disprove it on my own. i can't even solve calculus problems on my own. and that really depresses me.
to make a long story short, i wish i could go to community college...
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| i discovered how to send myself fan mail! |
[16 Sep 2005|09:12pm] |
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so this is what i found when i googled my name (i was bored)-
Send Orly fanmail.
I am dead serious.
There is apparently a site with EVERY SINGLE registered actor/actress, and the address of their agent, so you can send them fan mail.
I am beyond amused.
And a little freaked out...
oh and chloe, if you're reading this, your dad is on there, and someone actually posted on the message board that they sent him a letter- and someone else is asking for a copy of it. Umm... (PS happy late birthday, again!)
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[08 Sep 2005|04:58pm] |
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dear mrs. gold,
CHANGE MY SCHEDULE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!! I need to be in Leadership NOW! I'm missing EVERYTHING!
love orly
dear world,
the first two days of school honestly could not have been much worse. they were HORRIBLE. today was just blah, so i guess that's good- things are getting back to normal. and i have major hw tonight. yayness :-/. it's amazing what baking brownies with your best friends can do for you though. MOME AnF lol. We rock the seashell necklaces.
9 more months till school ends. that's the same length of pregnancy. i wonder what's worse :-P
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